20 things

20 Things that make me Lillie as of September the 15th!

1. Im in love with Recycle Botique, only just been discovered!
2. I like to have Mochachino's, Soy Milk, Decaff.
3. I cant have too much caffine [makes me go loopy!]
4. I love my new hair cut when its straightened.
5. BarlowGirl is my favourite band. Cant stop listening to them.
6. I think i have the best sister i could ever have! [Selena]
7. I also have the bestest friend who i love and relate to so much. [Allanah]
8. I have too much sparetime during the weekdays.
9. Ive lost control. [enough said.]
10. I like Jodi Piccoult's books. My mission is to read all her books.
11. Home and Away and The Simpsons is pretty much all i watch these days.
12. Along with Disney Channel.
13. I think the media is evil!
14. I get hayfever way too much for my liking. Springtime.
15. I think Lynda Campbell is a very strong and amazing woman of God!
16. I cant sleep in my onsey during the night but i wear it during the day sometimes.
17. Age is just a number for me ('',)
18. Living for God is more appealing to me than living for the world.
19. But I still struggle with putting God number #1 over my #1 weakness which shall not be named. Hmmph.
20. Im quite a sensitive person but i try see this as good as it helps me to be more considerate of other people.

God amazing!!

God is amazing.

He's my rock and i've just learnt that. I've never realised that he actually is that for me.But when i go through things that i think i cant even handle, he never leaves my mind. I try to push him into the back of my head, but it never works. Kinda stupid really lol.Sometimes i just want to forget him so badly and there have been times when i've wished that i didnt know him but i do know him. And i always will know his reality.Its far too hard to forget the amazing things that he has done for me and in my sight.

Just when you see like somebody being changed by him, you see them become more.. friendly and warm hearted and their atmosphere feels lighter, that kinda thing. You notice that God is truly real. When i look back into things i have prayed about and i've seen them come true, its the most.. exciting thing. Its the best feeling when you know that Gods for you and not against you. Well for me anyway.

I think that were extremly lucky to live close enough to a church that is thinks bigger than just itself but it reaches out to literally everybody. I feel so blessed to be apart of Arise and Elevate.

Yesterday =]

I had the best day yesterday.

I spent all afternoon and night in Wellington with Allanah.

We looked around heapsa shoe shops because i had $90 that i could spend on shoes. and i couldnt find any that i wanted that were under that price so i decided to wait until i get more money. There were some real pretty looking ones with ribbon as shoe laces but when i tried them on i felt like i was ment to be going bowling haha.

Shoe shopping is cool with Lana though cause we both love shoes.

Then we went to the starbucks that i got introduced to afew weeks ago by Laura.

Its so cosy and cute up there.

We met up with Rachel and i got me a Caramel Mocciato and i asked the lady what exactly it is.

and ive kinda forgot. but i know its got vanilla and caramel in it haha.

After that we went into borders for like atleast an hour and looked at literally like everything. i love books. I felt like getting one but didnt know what one to get. and then when i decided i was deffo gonna get one over the speakers it was like, "we are closing in 5 minutes".. so no purchases for Lillie and no money for Borders. but i do love that shop.

I couldnt find the DVD box set of Skins anywhere and i really want it. hmm.

Its R18 but im legal!!

Yeah.. Hanging in town and looking around shops with no time limit and having money is so fun.

I wanna do it way more. Good times!

Relationship seasons.

So many people have walked through my life. People have come into my life and dropped off a little peice of themselves, helping shape me into who i am. Sometimes i've been shapped for the good and left with amazing memories that i'll never want to forget and it makes me tear up when i think back to them because i wish that i could jump back into that day.

But sometimes, its a not so good shape. Sometimes people walk through and have bruised me a little bit on the way out. but this is life, right?

Isnt it strange when you bump into somebody who you used to share everything with and then you realise that you dont know anything about that person anymore. They are back to being a stranger once again. Your friendship is now just an old memory left in some old photographs.. if your lucky. But sometimes the photographs are too painful to look back on.

Who wants to remember someone they once knew so well and now they dont know at all?

Sometimes i feel guilty for letting the relationships get back to the stage of them being a stranger. I know afew people think of me as a snob, I've accepted that but i dont know if i would agree with it. Only i know what im really like. But i do understand why im thought of as a snob at times. I know alot of the time i can seem shy and reserved. Like im in my own little world. Lol i think thats what im known for actually.

Anyways just felt like writting that because ive been thinking alot about it lately.

Superficial.

Lately i've came to a relisation. This world is superficial. It's a sad but true thing and im accepting it. If you are pretty and dont have much brains, you are more accepted in society. If your ugly to society but have heapsa brains, nobody cares. Its so shallow or maybe just i am and ive been sucked in to the media? If you are fat, your judged. If your skinny your judged too but you go further. Well this is how it seems. Who knows, maybe im just screwed in the head or just too honest. People will think both ways. Im not perfect myself either, and i know i'll be judged no matter what, aslong as were human, we will be stereotyped and judged by people who dont even know us, just simply on our appearence.

Coolest Summer =]

Lol. This is awkward. Because Allanah is.. well was next to me.
Now she is going toilet.

I've had a really cool summer so far!

On boxing day i had afew camp friends around for 2 nights.. we watched movies.. Freddie VS Jason is the gayest movie ever.. dont watch it lol.
Aaaand.. On the day after boxing day BEN asked me to be his girlfriend while Sashi and Matt we're in the bathroom brushing their teeth.. how romantic is that.. lol
Soo... yess.. Me and Benjamin Oscar Christopher Eyers finally go out. YAY!
He's so awesome =] Im a lucky lady tehee.

For New Years Eve i went to Levi and Nadias new house. It was real fun. The best part was doing praise and worship instead of.. other things. It was an awesome start for this year.. im so excited about this year.

Lana helped me house sit my sisters house. We ate chips, played grand theft, got cooked alive, spilled kitty litter on the kitched floor.. twice.. and slept on air. Good times.

Last week i lead at Elrancho Camp. Coolest camp ever! i love it there. If it wasnt for that place i wouldnt really know Jesus. But.. it was the toughest camp i've ever done.
I loved my girls and i still miss them. I had 2 twins in my cabin, one looked like Miranda Cosgrove off Icarly.. and they kept fighting lol. Then i had one girl who was always off in her own little world and had an imaginary friend. And my co-leader had a few seizures here and there..
That was kinda tough. But i got through the week and 4 of my girls gave their hearts to God and now after enduring that camp i feel closer to God.. yay =]

When i got home i went to Amy's leaving party later that night and we played Cranium and Mafia.. im finally getting the hang of that game.. its so cool! I cant believe Amy is leaving to christchurch!

Then on wednesday Laura came around and we went to days bay with church and took heapsa photos.. i bribed my sister to take me so i could get one of the twilight books 0ff my friend for her to read... Twilight is so obsessive.. its scary how popular it is at the moment.

And last night was Tracy's suprise leaving party... It was cool.. we tried to play mafia.. it was abit of a flop last night though. Aww.. Tracy is leaving =[

Parachute is exactly 1 week away!! Im excited!! =]

Man i blab.