God amazing!!

God is amazing.

He's my rock and i've just learnt that. I've never realised that he actually is that for me.But when i go through things that i think i cant even handle, he never leaves my mind. I try to push him into the back of my head, but it never works. Kinda stupid really lol.Sometimes i just want to forget him so badly and there have been times when i've wished that i didnt know him but i do know him. And i always will know his reality.Its far too hard to forget the amazing things that he has done for me and in my sight.

Just when you see like somebody being changed by him, you see them become more.. friendly and warm hearted and their atmosphere feels lighter, that kinda thing. You notice that God is truly real. When i look back into things i have prayed about and i've seen them come true, its the most.. exciting thing. Its the best feeling when you know that Gods for you and not against you. Well for me anyway.

I think that were extremly lucky to live close enough to a church that is thinks bigger than just itself but it reaches out to literally everybody. I feel so blessed to be apart of Arise and Elevate.

Yesterday =]

I had the best day yesterday.

I spent all afternoon and night in Wellington with Allanah.

We looked around heapsa shoe shops because i had $90 that i could spend on shoes. and i couldnt find any that i wanted that were under that price so i decided to wait until i get more money. There were some real pretty looking ones with ribbon as shoe laces but when i tried them on i felt like i was ment to be going bowling haha.

Shoe shopping is cool with Lana though cause we both love shoes.

Then we went to the starbucks that i got introduced to afew weeks ago by Laura.

Its so cosy and cute up there.

We met up with Rachel and i got me a Caramel Mocciato and i asked the lady what exactly it is.

and ive kinda forgot. but i know its got vanilla and caramel in it haha.

After that we went into borders for like atleast an hour and looked at literally like everything. i love books. I felt like getting one but didnt know what one to get. and then when i decided i was deffo gonna get one over the speakers it was like, "we are closing in 5 minutes".. so no purchases for Lillie and no money for Borders. but i do love that shop.

I couldnt find the DVD box set of Skins anywhere and i really want it. hmm.

Its R18 but im legal!!

Yeah.. Hanging in town and looking around shops with no time limit and having money is so fun.

I wanna do it way more. Good times!

Relationship seasons.

So many people have walked through my life. People have come into my life and dropped off a little peice of themselves, helping shape me into who i am. Sometimes i've been shapped for the good and left with amazing memories that i'll never want to forget and it makes me tear up when i think back to them because i wish that i could jump back into that day.

But sometimes, its a not so good shape. Sometimes people walk through and have bruised me a little bit on the way out. but this is life, right?

Isnt it strange when you bump into somebody who you used to share everything with and then you realise that you dont know anything about that person anymore. They are back to being a stranger once again. Your friendship is now just an old memory left in some old photographs.. if your lucky. But sometimes the photographs are too painful to look back on.

Who wants to remember someone they once knew so well and now they dont know at all?

Sometimes i feel guilty for letting the relationships get back to the stage of them being a stranger. I know afew people think of me as a snob, I've accepted that but i dont know if i would agree with it. Only i know what im really like. But i do understand why im thought of as a snob at times. I know alot of the time i can seem shy and reserved. Like im in my own little world. Lol i think thats what im known for actually.

Anyways just felt like writting that because ive been thinking alot about it lately.

Superficial.

Lately i've came to a relisation. This world is superficial. It's a sad but true thing and im accepting it. If you are pretty and dont have much brains, you are more accepted in society. If your ugly to society but have heapsa brains, nobody cares. Its so shallow or maybe just i am and ive been sucked in to the media? If you are fat, your judged. If your skinny your judged too but you go further. Well this is how it seems. Who knows, maybe im just screwed in the head or just too honest. People will think both ways. Im not perfect myself either, and i know i'll be judged no matter what, aslong as were human, we will be stereotyped and judged by people who dont even know us, just simply on our appearence.